His Strength is Perfect

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This blog post is inspired by the song of my personal heart today.  I don’t often write about music, but have you ever just had one of those days when you just felt like you were just treading along stuck, scared, confused, discouraged, angry, weak, tired or just wishing things could be easier?  Sometimes, in life, those seasons come.  If I’m being completely honest…this is where I’ve found myself for a while and I know I’m not alone.  

You know, I am so blessed.  I’ve been raised from a child in the things of God.  I have a loving family and have been called by God to carry His Word to teach, share, inspire and encourage others.  I’ve been in the ministry for over 15 years now helping people thru these seasons of their lives.  Yet, I’ve had many moments where I still just felt like…..wow, what about me?

I’m helping others with the TRUTH and yet have a sense of guilt when I myself have to fight through negative emotions and doubts that try to attach themselves to me.  No matter how different our backgrounds/stories may be…..we all face challenges.  But somehow, I just started to feel shame about even allowing myself to feel discouragement because I thought….I KNOW BETTER – I KNOW WHAT TO DO – I KNOW WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS – I JUST PREACHED ABOUT THIS – I SHOULD BE STRONGER THAN THIS – SO NO, NO, NO, GET IT TOGETHER, NOW!

Wow, what is that?  Because, to be honest, I was thinking like that because I wanted to prove that I can be God’s soldier and show Him that I can be strong.  I should be because of just how good He is and has been to me, but instead, I found myself choking and cowering because despite all I’ve been given…..I’m still weak….that is, in myself.  Such an easy trap to fall into: Guilt – because I am nothing in myself…Guilt because I feel like I could have or should have done or been better…Shame – because I don’t know what to do and I feel like I should.  This isn’t God’s fault…it’s mine.

Today, as I walked thru my kitchen a tear rolled down my cheek and a song arose in my heart: HIS STRENGTH IS PERFECT.  I hadn’t heard this song in a while….and it’s not fancy, doesn’t have a super catchy bass line or beat that makes my foot tap, but it possessed something more important: God’s love and relief.  I rushed to my computer and purchased CeCe Winan’s version and have had it on repeat ever since — absorbing the powerful lyrics:

I can do all things, through Christ who gives me strength, but sometimes I wonder what He can do through me.  No great success to show, no glory of my own, yet in my weakness He is there to let me know:

HIS STRENGTH IS PERFECT WHEN OUR STRENGTH IS GONE.  HE’LL CARRY US WHEN WE CAN’T CARRY ON.  RAISED IN HIS POWER THE WEAK BECOMES STRONG.  HIS STRENGTH IS PERFECT.

We can only know the power that He holds when we truly see how deep our weakness goes.  His strength in us begins when ours comes to an end.  He hears our humble cries and proves again:

HIS STRENGTH IS PERFECT WHEN OUR STRENGTH IS GONE.  HE’LL CARRY US WHEN WE CAN’T CARRY ON.  RAISED IN HIS POWER THE WEAK BECOMES STRONG.  HIS STRENGTH IS PERFECT.

Oh my goodness, this is why I’ve been struggling…!!!  I had forgotten that the strength that I longed for isn’t found in myself…..regardless of what my resume or position is.  Why would I be ashamed to be honest with God about my weaknesses when His strength is complete in weakness….when I am completely leaning upon Him?  True intimacy with God is being able to bear your soul, fears, pains, victories, struggles, triumphs, everything without shame and receive help, love and peace!

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for you: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.  2 Cor. 12:9

Boy, this morning I thought, “I’m so glad people can’t see me right now….geeze!”  But you know what….I choose to be seen now thru this blog.  Why?  Because someone else needs to know and/or be reminded that it’s ok.  You can never outgrow needing God and I choose to share this moment of freedom despite the personal vulnerability required.

My help cometh from the LORD.  Psalms 121:2

The most beautiful thing about what Jesus did for us was that He did it in spite of us!  He started this!  He chose us!  I was so stuck on I should be stronger not realizing that I AM stronger because of Him.  He chose me when I had NOTHING to offer and said…..”MiChelle, I’m not afraid of your weaknesses…..I’m not going to run because of them.….I came to exchange my strength for it….so baby, get out of the way and let ME be the strength you need.”

The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. Psalms 18:2

I am no longer ashamed….I am relieved!  Thank you, Jesus.  Thank you.